Confusion

the sense of boredom sets in
way before the activity starts
there is anticipiation that something will start
yet there is no hope that it will
it may be lazy
it may be good
full of life
fulfilling your eagerness towards life
there are a list of things
that the mind wishes 'if'
there is a list of events
that the mind pushes back
its all a confusion
when you know where you want to be
but cannot.